Change is good. I think….   Leave a comment

I know that I have not always been the biggest fan of change. I know that it may have good things that come from it…. and I also know that there can be some very uncomfortable things that come from it. I was taught early in all of this that when i am feeling uncomfortable I know that i am growing. I feel like I am growing right now.
There is a small change in my life that is happening right now… basically someone that is very important to me is leaving the area that I am living in. This person is on to bigger and better things in his life. I am totally behind him in all that he wants to do. Its just going to be different when he isnt around. I know that in the long run this is going to be a very good thing for all of us. There is only going to be more change coming for me…. I know it.

Posted January 17, 2011 by richierich31 in Uncategorized

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This is going to be a doozy.   1 comment

Have you ever looked forward and just known that you are going to have some very tough times coming up. More challenging then tough really… I just have that feeling..
My personal life is the best that it has been in a very long time.. I am with someone right now that i really truly care about, someone that I love.
Its just the feeling of some of the things that are going on around me, and the energy that is permeating around me. I really thank God that I am sober right now, because this would be a really great excuse to drink.
I haven’t written in my blog in awhile, but I am glad that I am here now.. letting you know how I feel. I have a feeling that I will be writing in this blog a whole lot more now.

Posted January 8, 2011 by richierich31 in Uncategorized

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Thankful   Leave a comment

there are many things that I am thankful for in my life.. I was thinking about this today, earlier this morning… about all of the good things that have come into my life. All of the good people, all of the good times, all of the great things that I have done.. and when it all comes down to it, they all really really mean nothing without my sobriety.
With all of the highs and lows, all of the yeses and nos…. nothing would be here without it.
So thank God for my life, and AA, and my sobriety…

Posted November 25, 2010 by richierich31 in Uncategorized

Life…. Put into Perspective   1 comment

I had some pretty big plans tonight… I was going to drive to San Francisco to see my girlfriend. Get ready to have a great two days off. Just hang out really. Really the most important thing that was going on tonight was the Giants game. As the night started to get a little bit further into itself my Giants were getting their asses handed to them… and I was really getting pretty mad, even though getting out of Philly with a split was more then I could of dreamed of…. I was just pretty uptight.. really wrapped up in my own little world. Then I listened to my voicemail… to one message in particular that I had forgotten about. I had gotten it earlier in the day.. and I usually call people when I am driving.

My friend picked up the phone and told me that a friend of ours had passed away the night before… This person was more then a friend to both of us… he was really like a mentor sort-of to me at least. He was the owner and manager of my Sober Living house… the one that I had lived in for more then a year after I had got out of my treatment center. When looking back on people that had made the most impact on my sobriety, this man was right up there.

I was 30 days sober. I had relapsed after getting out of my treatment center the first time.. After the relapse, and after I returned to the treatment center I made a decision that I was going to stop fighting everyone and everything… including alcohol. The biggest thing that I had to stop fighting was myself… I had to really make the decision to stop talking and start listening. One of the first people that I decided that I was going to listen to was Jim, my friend. Some of the things that he said that I was going to have to do were not going to be the easiest things… but I knew that he knew more then I did.. and that my best thinking had got me into this.. So I listened.. he told me that my bed and my room was to messy, and I bit my lip and cleaned up my room. He told me that I was late and missed curfew.. my temper started to rise but I realized that I was in the wrong and he was doing it for my own good. ┬áBasically it was the first time in my life that I just let go and put it all in God’s hands… and God gave me Jim. Jim was a big part of what would help me hold on to my ass… in the crazy crazy existence that was my early sobriety..

I can say how much that living in the Casa California, my SLE, did for my sobriety… and I don’t know where I would be without Jim and that house. I know that the house and Jim had helped scores and scores of men make it through that crucial part, when there is so much that can go wrong. Thank God that it didn’t for me.

So after I heard… I had to pull over and say a little prayer for my friend.. Rest in Peace Jim. Thank you for giving me a sober place to live… and thanks for teaching me what it meant to be sober member of our society.

Posted October 17, 2010 by richierich31 in awareness, change, God, gratitude, heart, inspiration, sober living

I am very lucky   1 comment

I was just thinking about all of the great stuff that is happening…. Or has happened in my life in the last couple of years. Where I was, where I am…. And where I am now. The beauty of what is in front of me.
I just wanted to share this with all of you out there.

Posted August 28, 2010 by richierich31 in Uncategorized

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This is rad.. if you haven’t seen it.   Leave a comment

Posted August 26, 2010 by richierich31 in inspiration, now, optimism, patience, power

You just have to..   1 comment

I have been thinking a lot lately about what has been happening for the last couple of years..
All of the things that have been going on that have changed the fabric of who I am..
It has been a lot harder to write lately.. and I really don’t know why. But I really like what Chris had to say.. that its easier to write in the beginning of recovery because everything is just so raw and so new.. I just wanted to write down everything that came to my mind. I had never seen or felt it before.
Now I always think that I have to have something so damn clever to write.
Well.. I had a great conversation with someone a couple of nights ago. This person is the closest person to my sobriety date that I know.. So she has gone through a lot of the same things at the same times that I have gone through.. and we have come to this conclusion.

The First Year was hanging on for dear life. Just trying to stay alive and not slip back in to the dark depths that is our disease. Meeting and learning from people that were around us. These were the people who were on the sinking ship also.. they were the ones that were on the life raft with us..

The Second Year.. was a year of stabilization. A year of trying to get things in their right place.. and really get things that much more stable and solid.

The Third Year.. we think is going to be about getting the life that we had maybe once had… maybe seeing a lot of things that were in our old life… in a new light. Maybe even seeing some of these things that we once loved in a new light..
I don’t know.. this is just my own opinion…

Posted August 23, 2010 by richierich31 in now, optimism, power, relapse, sober, writing