I have been thinking a lot lately about what has been happening for the last couple of years..
All of the things that have been going on that have changed the fabric of who I am..
It has been a lot harder to write lately.. and I really don’t know why. But I really like what Chris had to say.. that its easier to write in the beginning of recovery because everything is just so raw and so new.. I just wanted to write down everything that came to my mind. I had never seen or felt it before.
Now I always think that I have to have something so damn clever to write.
Well.. I had a great conversation with someone a couple of nights ago. This person is the closest person to my sobriety date that I know.. So she has gone through a lot of the same things at the same times that I have gone through.. and we have come to this conclusion.
The First Year was hanging on for dear life. Just trying to stay alive and not slip back in to the dark depths that is our disease. Meeting and learning from people that were around us. These were the people who were on the sinking ship also.. they were the ones that were on the life raft with us..
The Second Year.. was a year of stabilization. A year of trying to get things in their right place.. and really get things that much more stable and solid.
The Third Year.. we think is going to be about getting the life that we had maybe once had… maybe seeing a lot of things that were in our old life… in a new light. Maybe even seeing some of these things that we once loved in a new light..
I don’t know.. this is just my own opinion…